Blown by the wind

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PS: I am not walking out on the cyberworld. Not yet. Maybe not ever. But this place is turning to dust. Give me time.

PPS: I hate Mozilla.

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Oh, what a night.
Late December back in '63.
What a very special time for me,
'Cause I remember what a night.

Oh, what a night.
You know, I didn't even know her name,
But I was never gonna be the same.
What a lady. What a night.

Oh, I. I got a funny feeling when she walked
In the room and I,
As I recall it ended much too soon.

Oh, what a night,
Hypnotizing, mesmerizing me.
She was everything I dreamed she'd be.
Sweet surrender, what a night!

I felt a rush like a rolling bolt of thunder
Spinnin' my head around and taking my body under.
Oh, what a night!

Oh, I. I got a funny feeling when she walked
In the room and I,
As I recall it ended much too soon.

Oh, what a night.
Why'd it take so long to see the light?
Seemed so wrong, but now it seems so right.
What a lady, what a night!

I felt a rush like a rolling bolt of thunder
Spinnin' my head around and taking my body under.
Oh, what a night!
(Do, do, do, do, do. Do, do, do, do, do, do.)
Oh, what a night!
(Do, do, do, do, do. Do, do, do, do, do, do.)
Oh, what a night!
(Do, do, do, do, do. Do, do, do, do, do, do.)
Oh, what a night!
(Do, do, do, do, do. Do, do, do, do, do, do.)
Oh, what a night!
(Do, do, do, do, do. Do, do, do, do, do, do.)
Oh, what a night!
(Do, do, do, do, do. Do, do, do, do, do, do.)

Vrodaz & Sishtaz, I iz ending diz soon.

You watch this space, mi corazon. Watch this space turn to dust.

Hehehe naaaadawahhh

Hehe this is what happens when you've grown too attached to someone. Ah well.

So hours ago three shopaholics - well one in denial (moi) - went to see the Shopaholic movie. J, Y and me. I can't remember which year I read the first book. I can't remember where I bought the book. I remember it's pink. And it is now in the kitty room. And I don't really remember how the story went. This is how I'm gonna be when I watch the next Harry Potter movie.

But I enjoyed the movie. *thumbsups* Caaaaallliiiiiiiiiiiii. Everybody was different than I remember I imagined. Well, of course. Especially Luke. He was handsome in the movie (according to Y and I agreed a little bit hehehe) but he was not the kind of handsome I imagined. Until at the very end of the movie where he gave back the scarf he suddenly looked deadly serious. Barutah okay. Hehehe. Because I imagined a very serious and handsome Luke bah. Will there be a second movie? Shopaholic hits Manhattan? But she was already in New York punnnnn.

Siuktah Race to.................mountain something atu? Hahaha. Witch mountain.

Nah I feel like doing this thing Yati and Anis tagged on FB. Kan memanjang-manjangkan.


FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. Zaty
2. Rina
3. Karin
4. Jati (Bawai & Shepol yg ku perasan lah ah)

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. 1st Ramadhan
2. 1st Syawal
3. 2nd March
4. 13th April

(What's 18th July, Ket? Your graduation kah tu)

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. Usai layout badan (yg P buat)
2. Facebook
3. Replied sister and cousin's emails
4. Bathroom

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Makan
2. Jalan sama kengkawan atau cousins
3. Menari lagu Mr Larpus dan lain-lain
4. Membaca buku sioookkkkk. Happy ku tu eyhh

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. Bah mau return tickets jua for me and sapa saja sudi ke Hawaii. Macam siuk bah sana atu. Mun nda pun ke Maldives atau Seychelles kah. Tidak lupa tickets ke tanah suci.
2. Kerita bah.
3. Hard disk emas ah, yang kana bawa lari tadi ah *lol* YOU CRAZY WOMAN :P
4. Bunga? (cian bah aku ah)

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading (tani semua suka membaca bah ehe)
2. Menari
3. Bowling (eh macam jarang tia sudah. Balik nanti tah puas-puas)
4. "gossiping. Nda lah.. just chatting. =)" (same same jua hahaha) --> awu same same. Hehe nadawah. I'm self-centred, nada masa mendangar ceta orang. Hahahaha. Nadawah. Ada jua sikit.

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. Hawaii tah tu?
2. Kan ke Upper East Side ku. The big Apple.
3. Paris
4. Venice

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Pepsi Diet (di Brunei nada ni. Cemana tu nanti ahhh??)
2. Root beer Dad's punya (Ai c Anis inda membuat ani kah favorite nya?)
3. Ice Lemon Tea (like cousin like cousin like cousin ah)
4. Milo (awu eh sama ni.)

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. books
2. bantal
3. clothes
4. charger mobile

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS
1. Green
2. Red
3. Yellow
4. Black

I add, FOUR FAVOURITE RESTAURANT AND WHY.

1. Excapade - pasal sushi nya murah compared to di Mesir and nyaman bah
2. Pondok Sari Wangi - nyaman ayam gorengnya bah. Banaarrr
3. Aminah Arif - ambuyat lah tu ah
4. CA Mohd - yg mcm ala-ala murtabak ah. lupaku namanya

( pasal aku lapar masa ani...huhuhu)

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
1. Lately ani arah bilik c Liyana sal nyaman tidurku sana hehehe
2. Di bilik tamu rumah kami jua sal nyaman tidur jua di sana
3. Arah Niny lah hehe
4. .....di mana lagi ah. Jarang hang out bah hahahaha. Merata tempat di SC lah.

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH: ai payah ni soalan ah
1. Family
2. Apis
3. Friends (cian eh friends no 3 ehehe)
4. Kucing-kucingku

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. Duit
2. ID
3. Handphones
4. Bantalku si Roadie

TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
Antah..nada. Ndaku mentag.

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. Ikutkan orang
2. Siuk usulnya ehehe
3. I want people to know hehe
4. No more reasons

Talking about the pot calling the kettle black

Except that I don't think the kettle is black. It's more like the pot accusing the thermos of being black. Didn't I say people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones?

Anyway, last night I saw a bit of AF diary pasal Rini being over dramatic. Terasa inda bertempat. Okaylah she has the right to feel what she felt but who had any idea she was like that jua kan? Luarannya saja kuat nya tapi dalamannya lembut. People can only see the outside, not the inside. Can't just expect people to read your mind kan. Like that Pilus guy said, she was being hypocritical.

But hey. Just my two cents.

Sometimes I wish the world revolved around me. But it doesn't. So hey, screw me! Live with it ya?

Bella's 'after' car. Now THIS is a babe magnet! Buy me one and I'll love you forever. =P Okay, I'll let you ride with me. Oh, yeah, I haven't replied your emails. Been busy. Eseh. Mesti reply tu. Catch you guys later.

The matter of the heart

How do you know if you're really no longer hung up on your ex? When you stop thinking about them right? Well, I got that covered. But what if suddenly out of the blue just by looking at their pictures, you open that door and you start wandering alone this memory lane filled with dust and cobwebs because you haven't been there since the beginning of the end of that relationship. Well, to tell the truth, I was stuck there for a while all alone even after he'd already left. I wanted to get out, but somehow I felt like the door was just jammed it couldn't open.

But once I was out, never got back in except some time after that when I reluctantly entered with him when he forced me to go in with him and see what we had in there, trying to convince me it would be great to once again be in there. Well I wish I was in the same place as him at that time but you can't force yourself to fall in love right when your heart is some place else. If I could I would. I really would because I believe in second chances, not the Once A Cheater, Always A Cheater theory. Mine is Twice A Cheater, Then That's It.

So I was convinced if that couldn't move me, then nothing would. My heart is glued. But now I saw his pictures with his wife on their honeymoon (and they're only like, 7 of them. Alum lagi semua!) I was jealous? Maybe I was jealous because they're there already and I'm still here in Phase One. Either I'm jealous of this or I'm jealous because he's with someone else. I can't really be too sure. Some people believed that we'd go back together again because we were so meant to be. Maybe he believed that too before. And maybe he thought I believed that too. I did, but I also believed there would never be some supernatural force to take me out of it completely. There was. This guy who's so different from him in every way. So that changed things.

The matter of the heart is so complex, it's beyond logic. I always believed that matters are only complicated because you make them so. If things are complicated, simplify them. What's so difficult about making things simple? But I guess I jumped on things. Things can be simplified except when they're related to the heart. I see that now. I mean what you feel is one thing. That's as simple as that. But it's another thing to believe that you feel something. You thought you felt love, but turned out you only believed you did. So how should we know if a feeling is real or make-believe? Your heart tricks itself and there's no way of knowing it.

Hehehe. This is how I tune some things out. By thinking of other things. Who would have thought this time I would touch the topic of my ex, who by the way - in case you're curious - is on good terms with me. =) I can only think if he accidentally stumbled on this entry, he would feel flattered that I've thought about him.

..which brings me to another matter. If I look back on the people that are/were in my life one time and another, I realise things have changed so much. How is this related with my ex? Well, when I was with him, I knew different people, I was friends with those who aren't my friends anymore. All these people were there up until we broke up. Then they just vanished out of my life. The people on my friend list on Facebook, some of them used to know my secrets and stuff. And now, we don't even talk. Just the occasional birthday greetings. But we have mutual friends. People I just met who happen to be their old friends, or the other way around. If I told you whom I used to know so well once upon a time, you'd be in for a big surprise.

Now there's something some of you didn't know about me.

I guess the reason I don't write so much or suck at writing good stuff is because I don't talk about personal stuff. People wanna know the dirt jua kan. All the juicy stuff hehe. Maybe I should.

So what do you wanna know about me?

ps: this month marks the sixth year and fifth month we're together. okay, this is too much of a piece of info for my liking. that won't happen again ;p

My nose is out of joint!

The wind blew hard all of a sudden. Close to tornado. We all had doubts whether or not we would survive to see the aftermath. And when we did and saw the aftermath, we all wish we hadn't.

Theories. Put to test. Actions just as expected. Theories confirmed. But do people take into account coincidences? Or do some more tests just to make sure?

Stories. There are two sides to every story. The strongest influence, and the weak one. The most likely and the most unlikely. The lie, and the truth.

History is not all that actually happened, it's just stories that win. Stories that aren't acceptable and non-historic lose, and whether or not they're true, are considered lies anyways.

World politics. I'm better off playing Super Mario.

So quiet here on Karin's blog

Alfu Syukr to B and Dud for treating us Mexican cuisine On The Border. At On The Border. Heh whatever hehehe. I liked the appetisers! Nyamaannnnnn! The main course not so much.

Hmm I wonder if people have trouble viewing my tag board or they just stop by to read and go or what?? Well Ket said ia slalu error kalau kan tag. Anybody else have the same problem? Or you're just being a silent reader? =D

Do tell.

Keriang~~~

Woke the beast

The result of Google Image Search, putting 'Korean Style' in search engine.

Can never wear something like this in Brunei because I feel like being overdressed. Brought one dress back to Brunei but never found an occasion to wear it so ended up bringing it back here. I don't think I'll ever wear the one I wore on this occasion again. Thankfully I bought it half off during the sales season. So to any of my cousins, if you're my size, you can have the rainbow dress :D

The result of Google Image Search, putting 'Emo Style' in search engine.

I think I am only able to pull off Emo Style if I am tudong-less. Skip ah hehehe.

Ball in your court now

Halfway through reading Eclipse, I realised that Edward was exactly like the Sun, and Jacob like the Moon. Click here for more details (or lack thereof. Who understood?). That said, it automatically hit me that I had a Jacob in my life, and that's pretty strong. I thought I analysed wrong, but the resemblance.....close to uncanny. The moon................Jacob. That's huge. Huge, I tell ya. And I thought the moon was just a small unimportant character in my life. But Jacob to Bella is nothing like that.

But then when I got to the part where Queen B realised that she was actually in love (or loved him? Okay what's the difference between the two?) with Jacob - I had got to analyse wrong! I can not be in love with the moon. It's not possible. Is it? Okay let's say hypothetically on some unconscious level I was, what would that even mean then? It's huge.

This whole comparing thing is so pointless, but that's what I do. When most of the characteristics of two separate individuals are similar, then their endings and results are most probably the same as well. No? It's just too much to be a coincidence.

But then I got a way around it. If someone doesn't realise that he or she is in love with someone else, then it's not really love. It's something less than that. It's not strong enough to be called that. That, my friend, is my belief. If you don't know you love someone, then you don't really love them. You know it when you love someone. The end.

Did I make sense? Of course not kan. Hehehe.

So two days ago I submitted my application for MA. Surprise surprise. Well let's just keep in the dark the places at which I have applied MA for. The courses I have applied for are:

- Arabic studies and literature. Ani last minute banar. Initially I put Islamic history and civilisation.
(If I was Harry Potter, I would say to Dumbledore, "At first I put History, then I changed to Literature. It's like I have no consistency." Then Dumbledore would convince me, "Just the fact that you chose Literature at the very last minute shows that you are a consistent person because as much as you try to avoid it, you can't help but choose it in the end. That, my dear Harry, is an act of consistency." Okay, I talk crap there.)

- Arabic-English translation. I don't wanna waste what I've learned since I started school and also since I was 10, so might as well excel these languages.

I've done research on these two so I hope I've chosen what's best for me. Now that that's done, time to concentrate on current situation. I have to start my Quran memorising now. I may be going back home this summer (as expected by my friends) but not because of what you think. I need to recharge, in case I get sent away again.

And I wish someone sealed the deal already. Wishful thinking.

Whatever end found us, it would not find us separated

I'm sleepy, but I don't know why I have to post an entry today. Maybe because I thought I had found a new angle to look at life from, and I feel the need to share. I thought I had it, but I guess it's false alarm. Okay, let's just say, I do have it, I'm just having difficulty turning them into words.

I gave in to an allergy pill earlier today. This afternoon to be precise. While most people have hassasiah during the cold weather, I have them during this season. I was scratching all over my body. I had to call the pharmacy and ask for a set of tablets to be delivered, and then I found there were still some above the fridge. These pills are supposed to make you sleepy as a side effect. I would have gone to sleep sooner but the fourth book kept me awake. The fourth book was less stressing than the third so I was much more eager to finish it, sleepy and all. And now that I'm done reading, I feel these strong emotions like losing. Pretty much the same emotions I felt when I finished reading the seventh Harry Potter - that last goodbye - although knowing there will be more from Stephenie Meyer. I've already read the first 12 chapters of Midnight Sun. If you liked Twilight, this book is going to be much, much more.......what'stheword...... Entah, pokoknya you'll so love it.

*yawns* sleepy sleepy. I was imagining a much more interesting entry than this. Maybe I'd modify tomorrow...or not.

I'm losing my touch.

Happy Retirement~

Happy 55th birthday to Daddy! And that officially marks his retirement. Enjoy! Well his two daughters couldn't be there to celebrate his retirement. Didn't know it was gonna be something close to formal. (Like I would be there if I knew.)

It's March. It's officially spring, right? I'd say it was time for spring cleaning except that I don't think there's anything different, weather-wise and all, and we are definitely needing our jackets still. But March also means the semester is ending, like not soon but it's gonna feel like so. Time flies. Man, I'm not progressing much. The first two weeks still felt like sorta a vacation. There was this indoor games thingie that was held two days in a row. It was surprisingly fun. Not that I expected otherwise. It felt like, malam berjaga-jaga. And if you know me and my family, you know we love this kinda stuff! I participated at rubik's cube and wii tennis. I lost at both though. Hehehe. Indoor is not my kinda thing (sudah kalah :P). Well at rubik's cube luck wasn't on my team's side. I always think 10% of that game is luck. Ala kulli hal, congrats again to Unit Sukan. It was fun.

Ah yes, I finally got the third book of the Twilight saga. Just. You and I know I just can't not read it. I emailed someone who got the soft copies of these books a few nights back, and she only replied it after I had bought Eclipse. Made me think if I had had the copies before going to the bookstore would I have still bought it? Well for the purpose of collection, I think I would still have. So there's definitely going to be some reading time for a while. I think I'm going to temporarily stop caring about everything else until I'm done with the third and fourth. (I hope I won't google for more.)

A picture of my G1 that I had said to post before. Well at this time I was using Rob Pattinson as background picture. So much for my denial that it was not Rob that we loved, but Edward.

S and I played bowling last night. Given the time that we had not spent playing bowling, we kinda got back to sucking at it. But my score will still be better than A's hehe.


The guy behind the counter knows our names. Every time we go there, we don't need to tell our names (have to give names because they'll put them in the computer, not like arah Utama) . But still in the middle of us playing he always changes our names for fun. See for yourself. Last semester break when I was in Brunei he was looking for me. Hahaha how nice. He told me this himself. The guy near the DDR area just knows our faces because uh - there's no need to tell names there. Always greets us and all. Are we just too friendly, girls? Or do we hang around at the same places too often? *Alert*

Well I'm done telling you what I've been up to. Hmmm... I feel there are things that I've left out hehehe like kuliah. Nothing much to share there. Till next time.

PS: I am weighing pros and cons of some important stuff. It's really up to me. Decision-making is dreadful.