Where's my sun? // aku suka, kamu perlu

I told my friends before why I wanted to go home for the semester break (the first one. You see, I decided to balik, then cancel, then balik again). Because I needed the light of my sun that was fading. Duniaku gerhana saja di Mesir atu tanpa matahari. Asyik-asyik pelangi ganya yang muncul. Matahariku mana? Selalu di sebalik awan yang tebal.

Secara majazinya aku sudah jumpa sinaran matahariku. Tapi secara hakiki, memang Brunei masa ani kejarangan nampak matahari. It is like Forks here. Always raining. Jarang timbul matahari. If Edward was a real life character and lived in Brunei, you'd see a lot of him around!

I'm still awake. It's not like my eyes are still six hours behind. I guess some things are keeping me up. I went to Study in UK at Empire this afternoon. There's this university that offers a wide range of Islamic studies. Interesting. Really interesting. Amazing how a taxi ride to Zamalek with my junior had managed to trigger my interest in studying there.

I'm still worried about my exam, but still I can't let that stop me from planning about what to do next. There are some options good enough but - I'm torn. Torn between what I like and what the country needs. Which one should I go for? My passion? Or job guarantee?

I've always put forward what I'm passionate about. But what if what I'm passionate about is useless? Tapi nada ilmu yang useless lah. Ilmu itu milik Allah, dan segala apa milik-Nya atu ndakan useless. Tapinyaaa... yang aku minat ani macam payah tia jua. Karang tenangis-nangis ku lagi sudah exam. *lol*

If you know me, cuba teka apa aku minat.

- Arabic literature (including poems, prose, critism, comparative literature and history)
- Quran & Hadith
- Nahu & Saraf & Balaghah
- Islamic Law
- Theology
- Islamic History

Or there's always translation. Hehehe. Mentranslate kah tu aahhh.

Cubatah.